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Originally posted by WindRider~
...I am doing this to proove to myself and others that I AM capable of doing it, and that I am not completely worthless.

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Originally posted by WindRider~
Hmmhmm... how can you define meaning, X? Does it really exist? If it doesn\'t then nothing is worth anything. But, this is worth almost everything. I have nothing to loose, and only one person has me to loose. And i am not that much of an assett as I used to be to them.

You know, I have been planning on doing this since... I entered my first Tai Kwon Do class 11 years ago. I have progressed to the sword, mind you, but these martial arts will still play a key role in survival. When I found reason to live, my sister... A few of you really know what I mean... I was going to postpone my plans until she didn\'t need me anymore. But she had more confidence in me than i did, and told me she would feel guilty if I did not go. She knows as well as I that it is better for me to do this, whether I die or not. You see, I\'m not really on good terms... well, speaking terms actually... with all but 3 members of my family. They think I am insane, and I may well be, but I am going to proove to them that I am not. And my doing well in the tournament is just the first step of many in showing people that I am not worthless, and that I am undeserving of the emotional abuse that i have taken all my life. Once I complete this... The navy, college... after a four year stint in both, I have a contact near the top of the MACROMEDIA company whos gonna help me get a job as a programmer... that\'s not important to you though, because it sounds normal, save for the sword fighitng. But I didn\'t grow up normal, but that\'s a whole nother rant.

My sister knows that i may die, and she has told me blunt out that she knows it. And that she has confidence in \"Snapp\'s\" abilities to return alive. She says that she is prepared to mourn me, and that she will fulfill her promise to become more than I have become.

Her and my best friends love gives me strength. Because of them i have a reason to live, and do you not all agree that having a reason to live would increase your chances of living?

You are all lucky, I\'m all out of time here tonight. But feel free to ask any questions, as there are probably holes, but the bottom line is, I may be ignorant, but I am far from stupid enough to do something like this if it was not worth it. Come, now, X, you know me better than that, do you not?

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Originally posted by WindRider~
Airman, you have issues...