When I was loking for this topic to respond to, I thought it had said somehting else. I thought it said \"What are you afraid of?\" This poses an intresting question. What is the difference, between fear and afriad? If somebody asked me what I was afraid of, I would say nothing. I\'m not afriad of insects, or of prisoners, I have no phobias. I got a little anxious when I was outside one time, Stephen told me there was a wolf, and he told me the wolf was dangerous. I thought I might get attacked, and eventually I went and sat in his car until it was almost morning. But I wasn\'t really afraid. And I\'m not afraid of wolves. If he hadn\'t said it was dangerous, or if I had actually seen the wolf, I wouldn\'t even have cared.
I fear many things. They are all related to the people who mean the most to me. There are four. I love my sister too, but that is not equated. And I seem to have this curse, where whatever my worst fear with a person is, it comes true. For instance, my friend Stephen, was married to an abusive wife. I was afraid that he would go back to her, and then not talk to me anymore. That was the thing I was the most afriad of, and then it happened. And now she is even worse, she almost got arrested, but she got off by going to the mental hospital, and now he has to suffer more. That had happened twice before; someone got a girlfriend or figured out they loved or thought they loved someone, and then left me to rot. I think it just happened again.
My fears are all related to the people I care for the most, and they always, always, come true. In my most recent relationship, they all came true, every. Last. One of them. But I think my worst fear, the worst thing that could happen to me, is to be completely alone. To have no one to talk to, no one to comfort me, no one to trust. And no one who trusts me. Being completely, 100%, alone, in every way. That fear has just come true. And it\'s really disheartening, when you know it will always be that way.