I\'ve wondered constantly what draws me to this area.

I\'ve thought about, and I still don\'t know.

I come here because here I can be anyone I want to be. I don\'t have to wory about people making fun of me, or saying I\'m not intelligent, or calling me crazy or-....wait....scratch that last one- anything like that. I can be myself.

What ever that self may be. I don\'t think anyone really knows what they truly are. Ask yourself, \"Who am I?\" and I\'m sure the answer will be some egotistical thing like: I\'m captain of the baseball team, or I\'m the smartest person in class, or maybe the blunt approach: I am me. But what is \'me\'? What is that essence of identity that we all seem to have a claim on? Many people aspire to attain certain identities. Many people aspire to create a false identity to masquerade in front of others. But why?

Because we\'re unsatisfied with what we already are? Then how do we know what we already are? I don\'t think we do. I just think that we just exist here, living out our lives day to day, enjoying or hating things as they happen. That\'s life to me. I have the trivial things, like magic, or coming here. But I don\'t think my life has any \'meaning\'. But then, I don\'t have anything to compare it against, and I certainly don\'t have the right to judge whether or not I\'ve actually \'done\' anything.

So what am I talking about?


What I\'m talking about is identity. Who are we? Not we as a species, but WE as in individuals. WE as in different people. WE as in different cultrues and different races and different objectives and different ANYTHING. The purpose of this topoic isn\'t to define who we are in reality, but to define who we are in essence.

What do we aspire to be? What do we wish to have? Why? To what end? What is it that drives us? What is it that makes us human?

For that matter, what is the definition of human? There is no way to say that human is a certain behavior or something, because we haven\'t met any other sentient species to compare ourselves against. And for that matter, are we even SENTIENT? What is sentience? What is conciousness?


These are my final questions. Perhaps they are the questions of life. Perhaps I really have lost it.

In any event, this is my last philosophical work. Do with it what you will.

Sounds like a mid-life crisis to me.

When people become confused with who they are or where they fit in with the rest of the world, they question why they do the things they do. I question why I have to go to school today but that doesn\'t define who I am. Anyways, most people deal with this by picking an identity and going with it. You can go buy a sports car, get a cool haircut and hit some clubs. I prefer to sit in front of my computer and playing games until my brains come out my nose. We are who we choose to be.

EDIT - Kei, you seem to be in a serious bout of depression. Is there something else that\'s causing this or is it just that you feel lost and without purpose?

[Edited on 10-3-2004 by Pocket]

Watching him leave the library like that was....scary.

He just suggested that I should register here. My name is BIG O!!!

But you can see that.

Before he left, he told me he was one of the Big 3...what does that mean?


And he told me not to spam too . . .
Well, so I\'m \'on-topic\', I\'ll define who I am:

I am an ADdict. Of anime. We have arguments about whose better. But I say I am.

I am someone who just lives like he wants to live.

That\'s who I am.

This is not truly your last philisophical work?
You\'ve instigated so many profound thoughts within us all, that surely, you will not now, simply abdicate the \'status\' at which we see you in?

Perhaps this has nothing at all to do with the question at hand, but I must express my concern.
You have made a place for yourself here.
Where will the source of philisophical topics eminate from?
With the loss of your insight, your will to find truth and the like, we face an ordeal.
Although, perhaps, you may not realize it, you\'ve contibuted greatly to the board.

Please reconsider your decision; you wouldn\'t leave Wind~ and I would you?

But whatever your decision is, you will always be a part of the \'Big 3\'.
The masterpieces, the thoughts you\'ve provoked, will forever remain in our minds, for as long as we post in IO.

OOooo..thought provoking.

Actually no, I just say I\'m me and let people think for themselves what that could mean. They could go to the boards I go to, or to my Devart site, and see my interests..see what defines \'me\' if they wanted. I\'m not going to bother with the definition.

And to answer.

Annnnnnnd that\'s why I left.

Because I really am just some kid spouting out useless words that seem really complicated.

Thank you Hollow Torment, for summing that up.

Furthermore, please welcome my friend, The Big O, who\'s too *beep* conceited to say his real name.

Mine by the way was Karl.

Thanks for the compliment Zaleon, but I think you\'re flattering me.

WindRider~, I leave this to you. Perhaps my \'protege\' as it were, can take my place.

Keiyoushi... this isn\'t meant to be an attempt to insult you or anything, and I hope it doesn\'t come off as such. But incase it does, I just had to state that isn\'t my attempt.

You must have a really fragile ego if you\'re willing to leave a message board because of one or a few people\'s opinion on you. And if my prior statement in the manner which made you get into the mindset that you\'re viewed as a kid just trying to sound smart, I\'d like to say I never actually said that about you but that one thesis.

Furthermore..

*Grin*

Necro, those words have played a deciding factor in whether or not I stay.

Actually, I think the primary reason I left is because WindRider~ commented on how I lost it. Not my mind, because who knows how long ago that happened, but I did lose my ability to argue on philosophical terms intelligently.

I\'ll get it back eventually, but I need to let my gun cool for a while.

polish my sword.

Things like that.

Or maybe I\'m just out of ammo...

Post redacted

I wonder a lot, too. Keiyoushi, your not the only one. I sometimes do things I don\'t want to do just to not think about it. Really. I\'m emotionally distressed sometimes.

Ohhhh..so some newbie called you all that, and you adopted the name. I thought for sure otherwise. My mistake.

But still, it\'s like you three are putting yourself above everyone else in an elite group. So I don\'t like it. But I guess that\'s just me.

Necro, lets take this outside. And this time, I won\'t make your hair white..I\'ll make it fall out and your skin will turn blue. Wahahaha.

Actually, WindRider~ was the one who started adopting it.

I just kind of followed along.

But that makes me a bad person, because instead of setting the standard, I was folllowing it.

Pick away Hollow, Pick away.




For it is the darkness consuming at thine very core, consuming its essence til all life is for nought.

See, I just have a problem because you let it get to your head. Otherwise I would\'ve said nothing about the \'Big 3\'. But this was a good opportunity so..

And I\'m one to say my opinions especially if no one asks for them.

I sorta agree with Hollow. Just saying \"The Big 3\" makes you sound like you are above us, but you\'re not. You may above me in posts or big words that confuse me, but we are all just members. We all follow the same rules and laws, and if we break them most of us get the same punishment. I just want to say one last, funny thing before stopping. When I read that that was your final philosophy post, the song Taps came from the movie my sister was watching. If you don\'t know what Taps is, it\'s the song that is played when soldiers are killed and have funerals.

Oh god, leave the poor people alone!

Is it really that hard to see that they call themselves \"the big three\" because they are the three big philosophical thinkers?

They are not saying that they are better, just identifying themselves.

I run the -ONB-, and just because we are \"Official\" nobody assumes that we’re better. What’s the big deal?

It\'s just a means of identifying, and finding a place to belong. We all do it. Stop the flaming already...

We\'re not flaming them, we\'re posting our opinion. Is there no line between slightly negative opinion and flames anymore?

If I were to flame them, I\'d say they were \'stupid\' or \'below me\' or something else arrogant and/or derogatory. But I did not, and neither did shadowninja. It\'s just our honest opinion.

If I called myself Big Almighty God, I\'m sure people would complain about that.

Yes, because I for one would kill you for it.

Assuming of course, if you said that. But the fact that you like \'picking\' away at Kei is just one of those things that puts you on my \'good\' side.

Kei bother\'s me.

And flaming is only flaming if the other person takes offense. And because of his \'all 7\'s\' post, he isn\'t going to come around to say anything anyway....

You know O, I\'ve noticed that virtually all of your posts have bashed Kei in some way.

And no, Flaming is not only flaming if someone takes offense


Flaming (Insulting Other Users)
Posts clearly insulting other board members, individually or as a group, directly or indirectly

I\'m not picking away at Kei. Even though this is the what, third time he said he\'d leave but yet again did not? :rolleyes: Like Doc said before, he makes alot of selfcentered topics. Or something like that.

I wasn\'t addressng you Hollow, I was addressing Mr.O

At least you clarify why you are annoyed by Kei

Come on Hallow, I always respected you, but must I pick away at your post?

Um...it\'s Hollow not Hallow

And that was a horrible example of Spam.

but, people like hollow don\'t bother me anymore.
And that was only the SECOND time I thought about leaving.

And when did Doc say I made self-centered topics? I think only about 1 of them is....but I\'ve made quite a few...soo.....what?


And, big O isn\'t coming back.

Was Big O someone you made up in order to stay at the board but not?

Doc said that in the topic you made about going to..another board. Can\'t remember it\'s name..go-gaia maybe? Or something like it.

And honestly, BlueSilver..calling someone a nerd isn\'t a flame. A nerd is a person who is dedicated to one specific thing..like videogames or computers or collecting something. I call myself a nerd and/or dork. I could see if I called them losers..but nerds? *shrug*

Yes, BlueSilver..you don\'t see anything to gripe about there, but I do. Wind seems to be a nice enough guy though..and so does Zaleon.

Yeah, I guess your right.
So nerds not a flame...
No hard feelings?
:rofl:

No hard feelings in the first place, BlueSilver. =) And...dangit, I wish I\'d remember how to do that rolling smiley.. *cough*