Dear whoever it is that hears my message,

I apologize. I apologize because I am about to place upon you the burden of a lifetime of desperate and lonely thoughts. However I can not help but tell this to somebody, for a voice cast to the wind will have no echo if the wind does not carry it to an open ear. I am yet, as of writing this, decided where it is the wind will lead, or if it will lead to the one who should hear it most.

Many spend their lives searching for something very simple. They spend their life searching for happiness. However we cannot shun such people because we are these people and our happiness is love. Ah. Love. What most fail to realize, is that the one thing they search for their entire lives, will almost undoubtedly bring them nothing but pain. However many such as myself, have long believed that they would find their happiness and it would be true. Devoid of all pain. The perfect release. Love. People such as myself are fools. They never relies that they are not the only ones searching for their life’s meaning. And what they fail to notice…more importantly…is that others will beat them too it. For two people it can be one in the same, and a common love can bring a sense of belonging to one, and a storm of grief to another. The main cause of all this confusion among us is time.

Let us imagine… person A thinks that person B is really cool and they decide to be Boyfriend & Girlfriend, and things stay that like that for a long four and a half years. Well let us not forget that Person C is still out there looking for his love.

So, when person C meets person B, and then falls in love with said person, it does not matter if Person C loves person B with all of his little heart, things will never change. This is because everybody that ever told you that “True love always triumphs!” was in fact lying. Time wins. Love will never stand up against time, no matter how great the love is, if the time is greater. I believe that this is the 4th fundamental law of the universe.

From this we can also conclude that whoever it was that first said that “All is fair in love and war.” Probably never took part in either.

All of this troubles me deeply. I cannot sleep knowing that the one I love is with another due to the nature of time.
I can not eat knowing that the one I love will never love me, even if I can’t blame them for it.
I cannot breath knowing that I will never have either the strength or the courage to tell them any of this…and so I will also never have peace of mind.

Thank you for listhing to my story…I thank the wind.
Always true,
~BlueSilver~


[Edited on 12-3-2004 by BlueSilver]

Try blinking about halfway through, it helps to do so every now and again...

Ok...tell me this.
If you love a person for as long as it is required for you to truely belive that they are the one you will spend the rest of your life with, and then they leave you without a secon though, will you still find happiness in their time spent with sombody else?

Can you really tell me that you would love somebody the same way if they never loved you in return?

Yes, you can.
But you can\'t do so without lying.

[Edited on 12-3-2004 by BlueSilver]

Love doesn\'t require searching,it requires patience,for me,it has struck,once or twice,right now,im going to go out with this girl i really do care for,we broke up once,but because someone interfered.

Anyway,patience and love go hand in hand,also,realize a great person when they walk by. :D:D:D

Note, that I said in the same way.
If they crused your hopes and dreams, than you would not love them the same.

Sure, you may still love them, but there is no longer hope, and so love is a shallow illusion.

It also turns out that anybody who says \"Don\'t lose hope!\" Are insane. Hope will simply add to the weight that crushes you when your dreams are dashed to bits, like a boat on the reef.

Poor ShadowZeroX...you truly are an optimist.

However I am a realist, and I have found through personal experience that all I have said is true.

Forgive me for being blunt.

*Sigh*

If thats the way you feel, than I respect that, but disagree hole heartedly.

We also seem to be straying from the original discussion point.

I must express my feelings of concern for you, BlueSilver. You seem to be in a bout of depression, in contrary to your normal aura of excitement.

And now, allow me to go into a philisophical rant.

Love. What is it?
Perhaps something we search for.
Now, it is not happiness in it\'s essence. It is a bridge to it however.
When we express these deep feelings withing ourselves, we wish to have these emotions returned, by those we love.

I once said that reality is the binding of our lives.
Well, now allow me to say that perhaps, love, it too, is one of the threads that define our lives. A majority of us wish to love, and be loved in return.
But more deeply than family love perhaps;
the love that is often a prerequisite in families. But the world turns a cold cheek towards those devoid of love.

And when such a case as BlueSilver arises, we feel, the world has turned a cold cheek on ourselves. It is an almost hopeless state; unforgiving, relentless, pityless, and unchanging.

As much as we wish that special someone would be with us, we know that it will never be. It is inevitable.
We hope, but alas, it remains hope. It will not change, in but the rarest of circumstances. And when we are deprived of this return of love, the happiness that would be becomes emotional anguish. We wallow in the grief. We drink the pain.
We breath the tears. We are the anguish.

One almost feels as if god has forsaken thee, a \"Why me?\" style of thinking. We fall into a hole of despair, and lie in the catacombs of depression.

Yes. I hesitate to say this BlueSilver, but while this message may well never reach the one you feel for, we feel for you, however distantly.
Life is rarely fair, the world is not fair.
But we learn to cope.

Farewell. BlueSilver, I hope that life is still meaningful to you.
While the pain becomes your heartbeat, it does not become you. And I pray for you.

[Edited on 3/12/2004 by Zaleon]

Thank you.
Finally somebody who knows how to speak from a unbiased view, and never fails to smack down ignorance.

Note to all who care...no, I am not suicidal, and never will be. Just though I would point that out.;D.

I\'ve come to believe that \"True Love\" isn\'t a reality. There isn\'t much that is. Old myths are not true, I could tell you many more that are nothing but beliefs that fools cook up to feel more secure.


EDIT: No, I was wrong. \"True Love\" exists it just hides. It will ony show itself to those who seek it. I can\'t believe I didn\'t see it before

[Edited on 3/12/2004 by Mega X.exe]

[Edited on 3/12/2004 by Mega X.exe]

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Since you talk about the wind so much maybe this is a job for!!!!!!......


WIND RIDER!!!!!!!

but im not him so i cant help you.......

But blue you do now without pain and (if i can quote Victor:.) Doom \'n stuff all the good stuff wouldn\'t be so good ..... always darkest before the dawn, light cannot exist without shadow, the more light the more shadow, blah blah blah the sayings go on forever...... your in love with someone im guessing :conf: and this \"c\" guy came into the picture.......

its like the timless tale of romeo and juliet they were in love.....and it was their time TO DIE! ahahahaha..........so i guess what you said no matter what time is always greater than love does have some truth to it. but still plenty of fish in the sea (and doom n\' stuff) ( i just said that cause i think thats really funny....victor\'s a comical genius/wizard)

but if you really want to experience true love go down to your local pet store and buy something.... no matter how bad you screw up a dog\'s always ganna love you.

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Heh. Another person wallowing in the throes of love.

Love is not the only happiness found in life. Others may try for hatred, others may be pleaured by material posessions.

To say that love is the only TRUE happiness is in many ways a fact.

To love is to devote. Or at least, to Love is to care. Care enough to give everything for that person.

I take it that you\'re suffering from love trauma, or some other shred of nonsense like that. I ask you: How old are you?

Something Kei had to drill into my head (Like I said, I know the guy) was that the younger you are, the less you are. You can\'t really know what love is until you\'ve experienced it. You can\'t know that you\'ve experienced it until.....(contradiction). I think that you just KNOW that you\'re in love.

But some people feign love. They THINK they\'re in love, but chances are that they aren\'t.


If you really want to find love, my advice is to find God.


*don\'t let Kei see that ;D)

No need to worry about that, Kei\'s gone...

That\'s funny advice, Gutterman. It\'s kinda true though, as long as you treat an animal well, they\'ll love ya. Not in a physical sense. =P

But ya know..you\'re just depressed and stuff right now, BlueSilver. Or at least seems like it. Because I\'ve dealt with your situation before..unrequited love as they call it. There\'s only two things you can do, really. Either stay as her friend (if you even were her friend), or stay away from her entirely and move the hell on.

The friend thing will probably hurt you in the process though, because she might come to you for boyfriend problems and such..gets messy.

But also, remember..if she has any compassion in her, she feels sorry that she has to turn you down like that. So try not to place the blame all on her, it\'s not her fault, neither is it yours.

And about love.. Before I had love, all I had was pain. It\'s the thing that brings me the most happiness. Maybe when you find the right girl, you\'ll realize that too.

Hey weird thing is as a metter of fact i live in a hell i like to call texas.......puerto rico (that little island in the atlantic ocean) was where i use to live..... it was cool a 12 year old kid could drive a car no one would care, and the cop try n\' sell you drugs. the only bad thing is during fire alarms in school janitors steal your stuff........ but back to the point......


well my advice is if your not getting a dog or a parrot or something along those lines rent a movie with people getting hurt alot.... like jackass or some other movie like little nicky.... that dude rubbing his nipples is sure to take your mind off of anything... (and make you puke out everything youve eaten in the past 24 hours).........:sick: after i saw that i know what i yelled out in the theater.......

OH MY GOD, MY EYES THEY BURN!!!! JESUS TAP DANCING CHRIST WHY WONT IT STOP!!!

I called you Gutterman..

I mixed you up with Heatman...

I\'m sorry.

I would like to say, first off, that you are a fool. Your first act was to offend me. Your second was to put yourself on a pedestal that I intend to knock you off of.

My age does not matter. I personally know people who find their place in life, love, or happiness at the ages after 50. I also know of good-hearted people who find their love before the enter Jr. High, and they never lose it. Age does not matter. Time should not be relevant...even if some are so blinded by it that it becomes so...

Back to why I came here.
I though about what you all said. It means a lot to me. I intended to take your advice. But that was all before last night.

It was her 16th birthday party, and we where making it a surprise one. I was so happy to be with her...

I got her a Rainbow Bright doll...she loved it.

But I will never forgive her boyfriend. He made me more violent than I have ever been in my entire life. But for her sake I held my tongue and my fist. Her boyfriend treats her like an object, but she has slowly become numb and oblivious to such a treatment. He spoke of taking her virginity.

If he does I swear, against my better nature or not, that I will make his life a living hell. He will not commit such a crime against my heart without going unpunished.

I hope he comes down with something they can\'t diagnose.
Something they don\'t have the cure for.
I hope he draws his last breath alone and painfully slips away in the night, unnoticed by all, including the one he treats like a plaything.

Never will he be forgiven.
I will not give up.
I will not die until she can see my love.\'
Even if she never accepts it.
I can\'t say I blame her.
But I wish that I could.
I cried for over eight hours last night...then passed out.
I assume due to exhaustion.

Forgive my little rant.
I will soon go back to being happy...

...
....
.....All better!:D

Okay well, now you\'re just being psychotic, BlueSilver.

I said I was fine now.
Deep breating...

Don\'t worry, nonviolent, nonviolent, nonviolent.

:D:lol::D

I think that I should be able to work this out without being to mean/evil....don\'t worry, I was just venting.

I really am a very forgiving person...most of the time.

Well i think that love stuff was getting to you.... but i guess it seems your better now.... i see no reason to keep this topic up but if you guys want to talk about the wind some more dont stop on my account( not like you would anyway)