This topic is not meant for Love help. If you have a rant about Love, post it here. This will keep rants from getting mixed up with questions.

I\'d post mine, but I need some time to brood. Simply put, the girl I was in love with, although they have not officially stated this, is without a doubt dating another guy. I don\'t hold anything against her. I never made a move, it was my fault. Up until now, I have ignored the beauty of several other girls because of my devotion to her. With this turn, I feel like a new chapter is beginning. The first book of my life has closed, and the next book starts to be written.

I\'ll be on a little tomorrow, then bye until Friday

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Alright so, we all know about my love problems. I can trace them back to one event.

In the 5th grade, I liked girls. When I had a crush on a certain one, her best friend managed to trick the secret out of me. She had promised not to tell. She lied. The next year I was rejected by that girl.




A few weeks ago, a friend of mine was in the same situation at camp. Everything was the same except for the fact that the girl and her friend were good friends of ours. That one difference was what changed the ending. Of course, it was never found out whther or not he like the girl. I don\'t have the time to elaborate any more. I will later.

The fact is, the whole thing was eventually dropped. It did give me closure.

The real problem is starting to fully reveal itself.

Dang Wind, Thats intense,I feel your pain man my love rant is no where near as painful as that!! My ex hasnt called in weeks and thats good \"outta site outta mind\" well she calls and says her period is late and its my fault blah blah blah, and well i told her its alright. Well today She called and told me it happend and it was uber late like 2 weeks late, and I said \"Well I respect that you told me thank you by....\" \"So how are you doing?\" She started talking to me, the sound of her voice messed me up royally, So today I like broke down and cried 3 times....Mind you Ive been w/ this girl almost 3 years and now shes got a new bf so vying for her out of the picture.....That made me sooo mad....>< anyways Wind, Mega we will all come out of this stronger than we have been before ^^and dont forget our soul Unisons Slip X.Exe and WindFlunkie ^^

Wind..no offense, but I think her parents are scared for their daughter\'s life.

Honestly, if my daughter was going out with someone who has done all the things you do...I would not be happy with that. Sure, I\'d personally let her go out with you, but I would express my disdain for said going out with you. And explain that I just am fearful for things that might happen.

But that\'s just my opinion.

And so, Mega X, you\'re just fearful of rejection? Aren\'t we all?

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Heh. I guess that story tells it all eh? You hit the problem dead on.

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Heh. I think I helped a little with that. At least I hope I did.

Most of which I say follows from the Love Help topic. It goes to show you just how different our point of veiws are on people as oppose to the person you really are.

For example, I had no idea WindRider had gone through such agony and remorse. But since he told us, we now know what kind of person Wind really is.

However, I don\'t find it\'s right that we look at Wind as only a \'mistake artist\' as he puts it. I\'m sure Wind is a great person who just wants acceptence. We all make mistakes, like he said and we all have a right for forgiveness.

But, going back to my rant, I find love can be very obscene or it can have true meaning. In the Love Topic, I explained that my ex-girlfriend played me for a fool, and me, being the nice guy I am, let her do so. Funny thing is, I would have never known she was a player, until the day I broke up with her. At the time, I wished that things could change and be better so we could get back together and hope for a better relationship. I thought she felt the same way. After that, next thing you know it, she\'s hanging out with all her old boyfriends and trying desperatly to get a boyfriend, even if it ment going back out with one of her exes. I\'m not sure if she did it because she felt insecure, or maybe she did it to get back at me. Bottom line is, if she had any such feelings for me, would she have gone running after other guys? I don\'t think so. And in time, she did end up going out with one of her old boyfriends, but not before making-out with another before hand. I found it disgusting it made me wish I\'d never met her. The long and strong relationship we once had just vanished into thin air.

You know what they say, \"You don\'t know what goes on behind closed doors.\"

I have relized, I am only 17 and I have a entire world of dating to go. No need to settle down with someone just yet. I\'m just going to enjoy my life for what it is now, it may not be the best life to live but at least I\'m happy.

I myself have realized things. I am an underachiever, I really wasn\'t, but I started to be one right around the time of the aforementioned event. I realized that my lack of effort is a glaring problem that I should\'ve faced a long time ago when I had the chance.

I realize that now, if I want to break the cycle and restore my being to the selfconfident state it was once in. I must step up my game a few notches.

There is another theory of mine, but I don\'t like it very much. I fear it to be true. However, I am holding thwat as a last ditch effort.

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Wind\'s right. For a while, we\'ve known that Wind has more problems than a math final

Of course, that was meant as a playful joke. is my way of showing that.

[Edited on 9/8/2004 by Mega X.exe]

Wow, I never knew someoe could be in such a pain as Wind\'s in. Pains me to know what he going through.

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Heh, this is good. The perfect place to throw out what I\'m feeling, and not get lectured about rejection and all that.



So, I\'ve decided to stay out of her life. She\'s better off without me, and I know that somehow I\'d end up hurting her. I don\'t ever want to, but I know I\'d end up doing it even so.

I don\'t care what it costs me, she\'s all that matters...

I need to get Xanga...

In 4th grade I met a girl and fell in love with her. A true beautiful sight at eye. Though, I was too busy being shy, to even talk with her I didn\'t know that she liked me also. I was down at the park playing and I saw her. I immediately blushed and tried to ignore her, but I couldn\'t. She came up to me and stared at my blue eyes. Then, she gave me a kiss on the lips that left me speechless. I knew for that moment that we love eachother. Well, then about a month later, she moved. I was very dissapointed too. Although, about 3 years later she went to my middle school and I was shocked. I went up to her to ask if she knew me, but she called me a stalker and dissed me.

I was turned down and really thought I was a screw up. So, I told her the next day that we were friends in 4th grade and she looked at me strangely. I asked her out, because I couldn\'t hold myself of not telling her, but she said no. So I tried again and again, until she finally said yes. So after the date she came to my house and we made out. I knew that we were meant to be together. Though, the next day left me to think of suicide. She was killed by a drive-by shooting. She was walking to school and was shot 3 times in the chest. The day before she got shot, I told myself that I wouldn\'t let anything bad happen to her, but I couldn\'t let that happen to her. If I was there with her, I would\'ve tooken the shots. I SHOULD\'VE BEEN THERE!!! I took a knife out of my pocket and told myself, \"Kylie, I want to see you.\" But then I told myself after that, \"What am I doing? What is the point?\" So I put the knife down and cried for almost 3 days straight. I had nightmares about her death. It still makes all of the rage boil up inside me. I just want to.....die. There was no point of living with out her. Without seeing her again. Though, I loved her very much.



And still do.

Great. Just great. First Windrider makes me sad, and now Vincent. Who next?

One more thing, Vincent move on {that\'s right, I said move on and live your life as normal}. She\'s wants you to be happy, plus if you want to stop having nightmares about her then like I said move on.

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There\'s this girl. I care about her more than anything. Obviously I\'ve had feelings for her, and it all seemed that she did too.

Perhaps, since I never told her, she gave up on me. I can\'t blame her, she\'s been more patient with me than I have with me.

Recently, it\'s become obvious that she has a thing for one of my close friends. Ironically, the one I told about my feelings for her.

He either denies or doesn\'t want anything to come of it. I\'m not sure if it\'s because he knows I have feelings for her, or he just doesn\'t.

Since this isn\'t the the Love Help topic, you can guess that I\'ve already made my decision. If she doesn\'t return my feelings, then there\'s not much I can do about it. I want what\'s best for her.

So that brings the score to...

World-- 5
X-- 0

Screw you, world.

It\'s true.

Mine against those people who say some shit along the lines of \"you\'re the best thing that\'s ever happened to me\" and then just get bored of you. (Wind knows exactly who I\'m talking about)
This is my ex who I see every day and is constantly on my mind. This little problem is only made worst by the fact that she\'s now dating a guy over 20 (and we all know what most of them want) that she met over one weekend and described him as \"a total heart-throb.\" This only worsens the condition that I\'ve thought about killing myself every day of my life since I was 5 and that she was the only reason I found to acually live.
What\'s even worse is that I can\'t \"just forget her and move on\" because I see her every day.
I hate her for what she did but, for some reason, still love her.